Monday, February 12, 2007
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Oh my sexy sexy flat nose...please stop running...
oh dust.. stop tickling..
oh dear Doctor, please top up my flu medication.. the drowsy ones and the non-drowsy ones..
oh Doctor, give me a day off work..
So... yea... i'm still having one of those crazy sinus shit ass what shit whatever..i got up feeling totally fucked.. my nose was stuck right up to my puny lil brain.. my head was stuffed up like a popiah (errrrrrrrrr...).. yes... i needed to stay in... i needed to lax again...
so to my favourite doctor i went.. and talked about singing yet again and got an MC. yea..
today, i FINALLY got IT done... it feels good.. such a relieve...but yet, while doing IT, i felt stupid....i don't know why.. maybe coz i'm not sure if wat i'm doing is right.. my friend asked me "r u sure it's worth it?"... i said "yes"... hmmmmmm...
so now, i shall eat my sweet potato cake and drink loads of water...
long week ahead.. work and practice practice.. late nights..... but i'm excited as hell!!!
and daddy's sending me to Expo everyday yay.. no more of those shit ass train rides.. yay!
ok.. i'm off... be good all... and stay ethical.hahaahhaa.. peace out!
edit:
so i was home most of the day (besides going to the docs).. and i realised (well.. i already realised this quite some time ago) that i would love mum's life... i mean.. she really is living it.. she gets up, she goes shopping, she does the housework and she gardens all day long... all day long and she naps.. so since i was home today, she keeps calling out to me "shirin! come look at my garden".. i walk out of the house, and i see such a beautiful, well-kept garden..and i see 3 housewives.. smiling, watering their plants like the world didn't matter.. i wanna be like mum too. i wanna marry someone like dad.. dad doesn't expect mum to cook. dad eats bread.. dad doesn't expect mum to do anything.. i wanna be like mum... i wanna be as happy as mummy!!!
well, i am happy but i want mum's life!!!
but i always have this conversation with mum. always.. about life..
each time i go through a tough time with a guy (if u guys haven noticed, i have a tendency to date guys who always leaves.. either leaves the country, or leaves me.. haha)
but yea... they always leave..
but mum always tells me to sacrifice...
mum sacrificed...sacrificed being away from dad when they just got married..
see.. dad's a marine engineer and he started off sailing.. he would sail for months and never come back till like 6 months later or so. mum would usually follow but sometimes, she can't.. so she sacrificed being away from dad. when i was born, i was also always being left behind when mum and dad went away.. of coz i can't remember shit..
then, dad decided to stop sailing and stayed on shore...
moral of the story: if u really love someone, you'll wait.. you'll sacrifice.. only to live happily in future...
oh btw, mum and dad were high school sweethearts.. and to think my life would have been the same with Leo.. right!
but yea.... thing is.. can i really sacrifice? then again.. it does take two to tango... is the other party also willing to sacrifice?
man!!! life!
i wish i was a lil kid.. life's such a blur!
pss: i was watching tv alone.. and i started laughing bout that night.. that night when someone said the craziest, dumbest words to me... how ridiculous!! hahahaha
psss: david baby.. cheer up!! :) miss you..
| name fought for sanity @ 4:21 PM|
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