Tuesday, February 20, 2007
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Moving On...(one of those posts which actually has some sense..)HAPPY BIRTHDAY SIJIA! :) i hope u had a blasting time last night although my body really hurts this morning.. what the heck happened?? hahahaha.. my butt was aching for someone reason or another.. haha but hey HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!and to Stan,sorry hahahahah.. that's all i can say.. im so sorry hahahaha
to the guy whom i thought was an ALL BLACKS, rugby player ( i swear he looked like a Kiwi. like the aborigins err.. did i spell that right?and he has that bod.. the rugby bod la. errr mr muscleeeee haha) but anyway, he wasn't haha but hey, thanks for the drinks.. really hahah (im writing like as if he'll read this. haha)
so yea.. its 10 pm on a Tues night..and it's back to work tmr..i don't mind the work but the wakin up at 6.30am is kinda annoyingg.. sheesh but yea.. back back back to work...
so today, i had a conversation with a friend.i kinda told him bout like stuff that's been bothering me. i think it's the age man.. i mean.. im 24 this year.. i'm a bloody adult.. i mean. i know that once ur 21, u r an adult but i never really felt like an adult until i started working and like out of sch and shit.. why u may ask??well.... here we go..
for one, the people i talk to, i mingle with, i see everyday, are mostly older than i am... people attached, engaged, married... and i realised that i've come to a point where friends are getting into serious relationships and getting married.. which realllyyy freaks the shit out of me.. not really coz i'm not attached but coz i was thinking, when friends get attached, married, would they really hang out like before? i mean, of coz not.. coz their partner's their main priority...u may have friends saying "hey! don't like that. we'll definitely meet up and stuff".. yup! of coz.. once a year if ur lucky..but hey, maybe this is a single person's point of view.. coz i have been in a serious relationship before as most of u (who have been religiously reading my blog)would know and my life revolved around that bugger.. sheesh. so i totally understand how bfs are always prioritised..
but hey, that aside, it's prolly loneliness and jealousy that got me..
which leads me to talk about something bout me! i've been told a million times b4 which i somehow refused to believe.. i'm choosy and very superficial and get easily turned off...i need to change.. especially the superficial part coz it's coz of that, i get hurt a fuckin million times. coz cute boys r bad bad bad boys! (not stereotyping. no offence)
but i guess i just miss... miss having someone.. just a special someone whom i can always think of.. someone, when i think of him, will always put a smile on my face.. someone whom i can whine to anytime i want. someone i can complain to. someone i can turn to..just someone.... (which reminded me of that fortune cookie: which said something like "time will tell" or something)... so yea... sheesh im gettin so fuckin worried.. which is just sooo ridiculous!
so today,i made a random statement to a friend (the same friend i poured my hearts out to). i said "i get over people easily".. well, im sorry i lied.. no i dont get over people easily.. people come and go but i don't get over them easily at all. my close friends would know this.. i'll cry and whine and just talk about the person every fuckin second of every freakin day... i only tell myself and people that i get over people easily just so i feel better bout myself...
if u guys haven noticed.. i'm a great pretender.. oh yes! a great pretender!
so my friend said "those with many friends are usually the lonely ones.." yes.. coz they don't prioritise. i will have to totally agree with that..
and babe ( u know who r u), i'm sorry. i know i promised i will stop saying sorry to u. but i'm sorry bout our conversation today.. but i'm glad i had it all cleared up coz it's been in my mind quite a bit... i just want u to know, u mean something to me.. u never left... ur not like the other boys.. like i said, u never left.. ur here.. in my heart. but looks like distance isn't nice to us. so babe, one thing u need to know (which u probably already know)... i <3>
we're going down....
And u see can see it too
we're going down..
And u know that we're doomed
My dear, we're slow dancing in the burning room..
-listening to this song never fails to make me cry...
and hey babe.. isn't it ironic how "to the left" came about? from beyonce's "irreplaceble"... coz all i can say is "no one can ever replace u"...
sorry for being so emo... maybe partly coz im pms-ing..
| name fought for sanity @ 10:06 PM|
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