So it's a lonely Sat night.. not coz i have nothing to do.. it's coz i chose to stay home. sorry my dear friends.. i need to just sit and do nothing.. so much in my head now..
Although i kinda have it all sorted out, it still scares me coz i don't know if what i've decided is what's best for me.. but i guess i'll never know till i try,.. so trial and error is how i'm gonna do it..
First up, thank you to those who have came together to pray for Jaz and her family. i shall not blog bout this coz i've not gotten permission from her and since it's quite a sensitive issue, i shall not go into it.. But thanks to all.. thank you so much.. I love u Jazzy baby.. i miss u ... and i can't wait for u to come back.. <3
Secondly, i've came to a realisation that i shall not expect anything and move on.. the thing about me is that eventhough i know something's not gonna work out, i always insist on trying knowing i'll end up getting hurt.. i never learn my lesson and i'm very stubborn.. but i guess i'll never know unless i try.. i tried but it take two to tango and if u want me to move on and forget u, i will.. i will try at least.. give me time.... coz i fell hard for u.. you're amazing.. and i <3 you... u know who u r.. i guess great things always happen when u least expect it and when u start expecting things, it always turns up disastrous..i guess ur right.. different cultures, different countries.. but trust me when i say i never regretted meeting u and being with u has made me really happy.. u changed my mind bout "ang mohs" hehe.. u know what i mean..when u asked me if i would change things if i had a time machine, i told u i would walk away... i guess i lied... coz i would not have wanted anything to be different.. u've taught me that life's as such and with that, i take it with me make myself stronger.. Just hours ago, u text msged me saying ur clubbing and it's free. heheh just shows how different our lives are. ahah i pay shit ass for clubbing.. u go for free.. wth haaha.. but hey.. i'm glad i met u... Just as i'm typing this, im listening to this song by Rascal Flatts "God Bless the Broken Road"... take a listen to it... it reminds me of u.. i can go on and on bout how much you mean to me.. ur really special and any girl would be lucky to have u... i'm lucky to have met u... i've never felt like this b4.. with that song i wrote and sang for u, it just comes to show how much u mean to me... last night, i went clubbing and Attica was flooded with ang mohs but my mind kept straying to u... that's why i text msged u...i couldn't stop thinkin bout u. i kept talking bout u.. my friends got sick i think haha..i miss u.. and i will come see u .. really soon.. despite knowing the consequences, i shall take the risk and move along from there..
i shall move along.. coz that would have never ended....
Anywayyyy, moving along... just yesterday, i realised i have huge decisions to make... no more "omg. is that guy cute? omg. this guy.. that guy"... i have to figure out bout what i wanna do with my life man! i spoke to my manager and she has given me options which i've spoken to may parents about and have put much thought into it... i have decided to give it a go coz i have nothing to lose.. like i said, i'll never know till i try.. so since i'm young and inexperienced, i shall take it up and see where it takes me..only problem now is i have to figure out how i can get my off to go to AUS and NZ. i have told my manager i'll talk to her on Monday. cross ur fingers i get my life sorted out...i'm freaked!
sooooo on a brighter note.. Standard Chartered has crazy parties.. last one was the crazyyyyyyyyy Xmas party at the Bar Baa Black Chic.. next up! MOS this coming fri.. for our quaterly parties.. this time, there's a talentime which i've been pushed to join. ahah so instead of just going up there singing, i've decided to put up an impersonation hehe. i shall do Avril.. it's gonna be exciting and ive figured out my wardrobe.. sheesh.. i will make a fool out of myself.. then again, i always do hehhehe.. and ooh.. Malvin.. im sorry.. i might not be able to go over for ur party.. unless ur party's gonna be till like 5?6am?hehehehe
so like yesterday, at the office, we had to like dress up with Stan Chart colours green and blue... me and Stan went all the way.. with green and blue painted nails and all. i brought stuff for stan to put on.. it was cool.. pic below hahaha.. i'm not sure if we won it though haaha crazy.. it came to a point where our undergarments were green and blue too hahaha.. and stand had green eyeshadow and blue blusher.. figure that out haha.. i love u Stan.. u rock! muackksss!
i had to work today.. hectic i swear. i'm glad it's only half day.. i got home.. chatted with Clement... hahaha u know ur hot dude. hahaha.. then i went to take a nap.. mum woke me up at bout 8 plus for dinner.. i got up starving man..
so now.. im here... chilling... i shall use Sunday to chill too.... another week tmr.. with loads of decision making... i'm too immature for all these.. i need guidance.. oh dear God! hahaha
ok... just to warn u... more than a hundred pics below.. holy shit! THURS( 11th Jan 2007)- DOWNTOWN EAST CHALET sijia, rae and i were there first.. then i went to the airport to pick Dave up.. Stan and Weixin came later..all i can is, great company.. it says it all. i love u guys to bits!
Don't ask! haha
FRI (12TH JAN 2007)-DAVE AND I we checked out of chalet at 9am.. stan and jia went to work.. dave and i headed back to my place.. we washed up, had lunch, chilled and we went to the mall to get his presciption glasses which i love.. thumbs up from me.. so cute baby! heh then we just chilled at home.. tired.. and no.. did not club hehe
My Singapore Idol
Introducing.. Shanice Aalbers... thanks babe.. i love her.. i know u love her too :)
Dave's way too much stuff hahha
SAT (13TH JAN 2007)-PHOTO-TAKING, RAE'S BDAY AND DEVILS BAR Dave and i went to the CBD area coz he wanted to take photos hehe. then, i bought him a sexy shirt.. oh so cute hahahha.. we headed to Rae's bday party at International Plaza, Partyworld.. after which, we went to Devil's Bar.
Pic taking time!my sexy model haha
Only David, with his height, could have taken this haha
hahaha ewww
ooo.. sexy shirt haha
Shine on , David.. ehhe
At Borders while waiting for Jia. hehe
Rae's Party!!!!
these guys claim they're "someone".. do they look familiar?? tell me if they do!! haha.. David claims they're familiar but can't figure it out..
ooooooooo 3 litres of Martell
ewww double chinn
Devil's Bar!
the ang moh plays the local game? haha
hahaha..
and gets himself drunk.. haha
SUNDAY (14TH JAN 2007)-DAVE'S DEPARTURE the day i've NOT been waiting for... Dave woke me up rather early.. considering the fact that we got home at 7am haha.. he had to pack.. urgh! i hate packing and departing... after packing, had dinner with the family and off to the airport..
Pack time!
Don't let the Kiwi leave the country without the Haka! hahaha i really wanted it on video but he was like "if u are taking a video, i swear i'll kill u" haha buth how cute is thissss hehehe
David and Shanice Aalbers..
Dinner with the family..
At the airport ...:(
While waiting to board... sighh
Random pics! i needed a wig for my impersonation and mum found this.. and look at her all hot! hahahah love u mummy
Stan and i with Stan Chart colours.. hahaha omg!look at Stan.. awwwwwwwww
Ok.. here we go.. the video of the song. that reminds me of David.. i love the song.. listen to the lyrics.. i tear each i hear it...
and here.. is the video i made for David.. the wrote i wrote.it's stupid sorry but anyway, haha.. sorry the mouth and song doesn't sync. i don't know why..
ok im off.. and ps: i took off the song on the blog.. it got annoying.. shall think of another one soon..
