Wednesday, August 09, 2006
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Everyone is guilty for lying.. no doubt bout that.. but last night, when I found out someone “lied”.. I told myself “ok shirin! That’s it! Snap out of it! No use sulking! No use pondering! No use thinking! No use wishing! No use hoping!” so I took that first step.. I finally did… in the past, I would do it half way but today, I told myself! THAT’S IT!
I spoke to mummy bout it.. and she’s glad I’m moving on…. I have to la.. I just don’t understand why I can’t like “move on”.. despite the fact that I know nothing will ever happen.. like I know it won’t be like b4.. and I know there will never be.. so why am I still hanging around??? Why Shirin?? Why?!?! Why so stupiddddddd!! Forget it!!! Don’t text msg, don’t msn msg, don’t even think bout doing any of that! Forget bout it!
Why does this bother me so much?!!? Whyyyyyyyyyy!!! Shirin! I am very disappointed in u! u can do it for LS! U can do it now too! It should be easier…… aiyoyo.. why so dramaaaa…. This isn’t me at all!!!
So like I spoke to Sitti last night.. it’s been quite some time.. I’m so glad I got to catch up with her… I screwed up the meeting with the Metal Girls on Sunday. I’m such dick. I miss them.. we need to meet.. next week promise… all 4 of us!!!! And ALVINA, join us if ur free ok babe?? I wanna see ur car also la dey! Sitti was like “shirin, same old”.. well.. yea I’ve not changed. I’m still the loud crazy idiot.. but I got emo moments la hahaha.. as always.. they all know that when I cry, I really cry la. But when I’m emotionless, I’m like fucked la. haha
So yea.. the fact that Jazzy babe works at odd hr is making me sad.. I miss her already! I wanna hang out with herrrr!! Hahaha lucky rotating shift. Next time my turn man.. oh dear but call volume a bit slower and lower. So I guess it’s quite fun hehe.. ok so then. she called me after work and I bitched so much omg! And she’s like so proud of me la that I have FINALLY decided to move on!!! Like omg! Like damn drama la.. Si Jia also like omg! Like seriously, Jaz has been waiting for this moment.. that I’m certain that I’m moving on.. like no use la alamak. Shirin! U stupid kukubird!
But all these drama all not me la.. I shouldn’t create drama for myself… I should be happy!! Wheee!!!! Besides all these drama, all is good!! I’m happy!!! Yay hahaha..
Ok.. talking bout me not being myself… yesterday was probably like the worst day la.. I wore the most uncomfortable outfit to work.. and it made me so NOT confident la.. I felt sooo kuku I swear.. like the skirt and shirt makes me look like what my friends say “mature” , “formal”, “so unlike me”, “uncomfortable”.. and yes that’s true… I felt and looked uncomfortable.. I don’t know why… I just felt like shit the whole day and it’s all coz of what I wore. I went to Bugis with Rae for a bit after work and I was quiet and I looked uneasy.. Rae was like “babe, u r not urself. Why u so unsociable today?” hahaha.. omg!true enough la. I was quiet.. I was sulking.. coz I felt uncomfortable.. almost wanted to take a cab home but I swear the queue would be long so I took the train. When I got home first thing was to change la.. omg I felt soo good…… like woah.. I’m breathinggg!!
Then lunch time, manager brought us out some more… then need to take bus.. with what I was wearing.. like omg retardedness!
But yea anyway, I’ve learned my lesson and I should get my clothes ready the night b4 and try them on b4 going to work.. coz I won’t want to repeat yesterday!!
OK LIKE OMG! Last night, while waiting for supper, I fell asleep.. I was meant to go for supper and then meet Emma they all at Zouk. But me being the “when I sleep, nothing can get me up” person, I slept thru.. thru all the calls and smses.. Shirin, u fuckin dickhead! And best thing is I woke up at noon just now.. like Shirin power man!!! U fuckin kukuhead! SORRY EMMA AND WAN! LIKE OMG!!! Call u later babe!
Ok.. I’m still thinking what I should do today.. I’m lazy………but maybe I wanna go watch fireworks ah… ok.. maybe I go dinner and fireworks! Like wheeeeeeee!!!!!!
Have a good holiday all! And what would this entry be without my birthday wish to the bestest country in the world!!!
HAPPY 41ST BIRTHDAY, SINGAPURA!!!!
| name fought for sanity @ 1:15 PM|
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