Tuesday, September 27, 2005

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i keep thinking bout not having Leo around from Feb 06 onwards. i hate the feeling!!! after 6 years, i've became so dependent on him! what am i to do when he isn't around! everything's amiss! everything's gonna be different!!!!!! it always makes me sad... so sad.. so lost.. so confused..

we talk about it a lot... we know this is gonna work out. this relationship is strong enough to withstand anything BUT still!!! i need him!!! but i got to be strong! i must! and i will!!! but it's not easy................

on sat, we walked past the padang and saw the Starlight Cinema. i wanted to bring him there but i THOUGHT he wouldnt like it.. but i guessed i thought WRONG... and i feel like crap.. of coz he said "it's ok. it doesn't matter where we r for as long as we're together".. but nevertheless, if only i knew he would have liked to go for that.. i'm so dumb!

but yea.. these next few months, i would spend as much time as i can with him.. he's the greatest gift God sent down to me. i am blessed.. with an amazing family, a loving bf and the bestest friends ever! and with that, i'm contented..

but still.. i will miss u Leo...but i got to think of it this way... u will miss me too.. but hey! i'm here! i always will be.... forever and ever......... i mark ur words.. u know what they r :):):) wink wink..

I love u... all of u.. who loves me..

ps: test sucked today!!! stupid assignment is dued soon. fuck!!!!! and hafeez gloamour from manja wants to talk to me.. i wonder bout what. hmmmm.....


| name fought for sanity @ 10:31 PM|

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